Monday, October 29, 2012

I Care Too Much

It's been less than a year since you've been divorced and now you're engaged to a gal you've never even met?  I know you're on the rebound, but if you're actually being serious then you are just a big idiot!  And desperate!  I care for you like a brother, and I know you were never really happy in the marriage (she held you back from things you loved and I get that) but this fear of being alone will pass if you let it.  Who am I kidding?  I don't have any room to talk.

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It's not the fact that we said we were going to save that loose change until the jar was full.  It's the fact that you were going to use it to buy a "sandwich" because there was $1.07.  You heard what the chiropractor said!  Don't you CARE enough about our son to actually TRY to lose weight?  But maybe I shouldn't care about my own husband enough to tell him not to take money out of our little saving jar.  Maybe I shouldn't care that we don't really have the money to waste $1.07 on a stupid sandwich at McD's.  No, I should just let you think with whatever wrong brain you're using.  Because the wife is supposed to be a follower not a leader.

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Po1s0n.

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Cuz I'm a Quitter/Commitaphobe

...and yet I'm married.  Who knew?  Oh well, it's only a daily struggle with myself.

Anyway, yes, I quit the Love Dare.  Why?  Because it really didn't fit my life.  And you know what?  After I actually gave it up, my attitude got a lot better.

So we'll see how NaNoWriMo works out.  Don't know what that is?  Well, Google it for better understanding.
It's National Novel Writing Month or something like that.
I have to take November and write 50,000 words on my novel!  Thankfully, it's only a rough draft.  Because there will be a lot of grammar editing involved, I'm sure.  Hey, I'm not perfect!

Let's hope I don't quit on that, too.

Poison.

Monday, October 1, 2012

Dare 13

Purposefully neglect an activity you would normally do so you can spend quality time with your spouse.  Do something he or she would love to do or a project they’d really like to work on.  Just to be together.

I'm realizing that this book is made for couples who both have lives...
I have no life.
Therefore, I cannot purposefully neglect an activity to spend quality time with my husband.

Most of these things lately just haven't fit us.  It sucks.  Our lifestyle is completely different than the "normal" lifestyle, I guess.
Or maybe it's made mainly for men.  Who, of course, have lives.

Not giving up.  Just not able to do most of this stuff.  I mean, I can do something with him if he wants me to.  Just to be together.

Poison