Saturday, October 25, 2014

Really?

I have two married men and one single man hitting on me hardcore *sigh*

Where did this come from all of a sudden?  I'm so confused.

Oh, if I were still who I used to be when I was 18 -_-  and not married.

How can I not be tempted?  Thanks, Satan *sigh*

I wish I were more confrontational than I used to be.  One of the men insists I've grown from who I was (just based on stories I've told him) in this particular department, but I don't think so.  If I were cornered, I'd so fail that test.  Let's hope I don't get in that situation :(

Friday, October 24, 2014

Losing a Ghost

I see these pictures
that remind me of you
or at least the "you" I knew

A connection
severed long ago
Oh, how I strove
just to get it back

Years go by
with more distance between us
even though physically closer

I saw what you were
and what you've done to her
but I still mourn

Because I see these pictures
that remind me of you
or at least the "you" I knew

I loved you once
sister to brother
but you abandoned us
and we'll never know why

I guess that's just who you are

Thursday, October 23, 2014

Seriously!?

So one of my poke-buddies just messaged me... and by poke-buddy I mean on facebook so don't get any dirty ideas, readers :p

Anyway, he randomly messaged me about how if we were both single, he'd be in trouble because I'm gorgeous.  o0

He's married to a gal I used to work with.  And he's maybe older than my own dad.

What's with all the older guys??????
I'm married, dude.  I'm sorry, but I'm just not interested.
Don't take it personally.  My mind doesn't often wander to other fields.  I'm quite content in the field I'm currently in.

P.

Sunday, September 7, 2014

Work Over Church

So much for a spiritual leader...
I'm sick.  So much so I barely have a voice.  I texted my husband in plenty of time for church that he should take the toddler (who asks every day if we are going to church) but I would be staying home.
If he left now, he would be late.  I asked him if he was going and he said "hadn't planned on it".
Giving him the benefit of the doubt, I asked where his phone was and told him I texted him twice.  He got the first one.  He told me he got the first one and then said something incoherent.  I said "so you just didn't care" and he said "okay we'll go with that one" in a sarcastic mood.
Is it so much to ask for him to go to church?  He SAYS he wants to go more often but then he doesn't go.
I'm assuming he's working on a writing gig of his, but seriously church is an hour long.  OMG, he'll miss an hour.  And I'll get an hour of peace with no child bursting in on my much needed rest.

P.

Thursday, August 28, 2014

Ferguson

"Some say his hands were up
Others say he was charging aggressively with no signs of backing down even after being shot multiple times (proof the original intention was to maim and not to murder if this is correct)
Video says he was a violent delinquent...

I know nothing, but since I'm white, I cannot speak on behalf of the cop who MAY have actually been doing the right thing or else get accused of being racist.  Makes sense to me."
~a post I saw on a social media site.

Reverse racism exists too, whether you like to believe it or not.  But because of our ancestries, we must bow down to those we have hurt in the past and forever be indebted to them.  There is no middle line to the white people.  There are those who hate and those who feel we must wrong every right by believing every black kid killed was because of hate.

I sit here on the fence and watch, scared to say how I really feel because of the hate spewed from both sides... though mostly the hate of the black people.  I am not racist.  I just observe.

Not every white cop who kills a black person is a bad cop.  Not every cop is a bad cop, period.

Yeah, I'm gonna get a lot of hate for this, but it needs to be said and I'm not the only one who feels this way.

P.

Sunday, July 6, 2014

wtf did i do?

and I'm left wondering what I did wrong
30 minutes for a day
and you won't even come to bed
get up before the sun
and you go to bed
I'm sick of this
don't give me crap about how you had shit to do
it's called priorites and fucking time management
don't fucking game all day
(or whatever the hell you were doing under that guise)
and then come home at midnight
you don't want to wake me up
but I texted you so you knew I was awake
you still didn't come to bed
until 6am
and I'm left wondering what I did wrong