So the plan is that I'm staying and kiddo is going to the in laws the day after I get back. Then, hubby wants us moved within a week to God only knows where since we haven't found a place yet and have no money for a deposit.
And supposedly I'm supposed to have a lot of trust in a guy that cheated on me once (ok it was a long time ago, but still) and says things but doesn't do them. He admits that he has a lying problem as well as a problem with money. But I'm supposed to put all of my trust in him. Right. That makes a heck of a lot of sense.
He can make every excuse in the book about not fixing my car but will fix his friend's car. And I'm supposed to trust that my car will actually get fixed next week when it was supposed to already be done.
I try to walk on eggshells for this man so I don't hurt his feelings, but no matter what I do, it's wrong.
His FB "got hacked" (again, I just have to trust that's the reason he changed his email and password without telling me anything about getting hacked) and he couldn't figure out what they did on it. I saw that his relationship status was completely missing on his profile, so I sent a relationship request for him to confirm that I was married to him. He never confirmed it. Today, I asked him why and he got all defensive about how the only thing that matters is that WE know. It's nobody's business but ours. So I took mine off and told him. He was all talk about how if it was that upsetting to me I should have just told him how important it was to me. I never said it was that important. OK, yeah I'm a bit paranoid (again, I've been cheated on and he hung out with the gal again a couple of years later while I was away from home; I think I have a right to be a little weary) but I never said that it made me angry. He said I was mad. He said it was important to me. He also made it perfectly clear that it was not important to him. So I made my relationship status only visible to me and added that I was interested in men. Just to see how important it really was to him. I find it interesting that he can hide his status but got upset (making it out to be that I was the one upset, of course) when I hid mine. But when I hacked into his profile, there were no emails from a certain ex of his and she was still blocked as well as some of her family. There is no evidence of him cheating on me, but some of the things he does just rubs me the wrong way. I know I'm not the wife he wants (though he says otherwise) so it makes me a little scared that he is going to cheat on me to get what I can't give him. And he is more likely to do that when I'm away from home.
That's another thing. He kept pushing for me to stay longer. At one point, he was trying to convince me to stay for 6 months. Umm. NO! His reasoning? So that he could learn to control himself with money, get us financially stable, and have me trust him again. Right. Because that makes perfect sense. Whatever. And then there was the mold situation and he asked me to stay for another month so that he could find us a place to live. We decided not to go with that plan, and instead... Well, just reread the beginning of the post.
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