Another Lost Item

Great.  Went to sign up for benefits for the SNAP program as well as Kids Connection only to find out I have no idea where his SSN is hiding.  And I don't have it memorized.  Why wasn't it in the safe where I remember putting it??

To top things off, the roommate helped me look for it while my own husband sat on his butt in front of the TV playing some video game.  Sure, he shot off one suggestion (which was bogus and totally wrong) but didn't once get off his butt to help.  I don't know where to look for the darn thing, so a little bit of help would be nice.

Then he likes to say things like "I got this for you" and ends up taking it for himself.  Don't tell me it's only mine and then take it.  Does that make sense to anyone else?

Oh he frustrates me sometimes!

Poison

Blaring

Music so loud directly in my ears from the headphones so I can't hear the baby screaming and the hubby freaking out....  He doesn't know what to do!

And I do??  When he screams like that, I'm just as clueless.  I wanna freak out, too!  But you know what???  I CAN'T!!!  Nope!  Not allowed.  I am a stay at home mother struggling to understand programming to pass a class; struggling just as hard to understand the cries coming from the mouth of my 8 month old who can still only say "hi" and "mommy" without actually knowing what he's saying...

I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU!

Why does that seem to be the most common phrase in this place?

Po1s0n

>.<

Just Some Thoughts

I like how you found a friend who happens to be a pastor of a church.  I'm glad for you.  Then why do I feel so left out?  I've met his wife once, and she's so quiet!  How can I get to know someone who doesn't even talk?  It's great that you're looking for a men's bible study, but what about me?  I need a break from the kid once in a while.  I need a social life!  And I need a CHRISTIAN social life!  I just don't know where to get it...

I'm gonna try not to care about your weight anymore.  I'm not going to complain when you want pop.  I'm not gonna say anything when you bring candy or pop to bed.  I won't even openly disbelieve you when you say you drink all water at work and tea at McD's.  I'm not even going to roll my eyes at you when you say you want something OTHER than water, because you've been drinking it so much.  And when you want to go out to eat?  The only reason I'm going to say no is because I'm trying so hard to save money.  We have food here than needs to be eaten.

You say you want to save money.  You say you want to lose weight.  Then why do you order those extra crab Rangoon when I tell you there's 7 of them in the fridge?  Do you really need to eat 8 one night and 7 the next day?  We need to eat out less often.  And we need to get healthier food for eating at home.  Granted, the healthier food is more expensive...

But like I said, I'm not going to care anymore.  I won't care about your weight; I won't care about your health.

Po1son.

Staying Put *pout*

I want to throw a huge tantrum, but either I'm tantrumed out or can actually think things through.  I wanna move so badly to another town, but my husband is **logically** dragging his feet about it.  School is giving him issues, work can't really work with him and keep him on full time.. and the other part that I see is that we have a roommate soon who also works here.  So.. having more time gives him more time to get a transfer going.

I hate this.  I don't want to live here.  I want to go live where my friends live.  I want that great Christian environment.  I don't have that here.  This is a crucial time for my faith, too...

Poison.

Why I Prefer Characters

My characters will put a new bag in when they take out the trash.  They change the toilet paper roll.  They are fiscally responsible.  They use logic!  They do what I ask without grumbling about it.  They care about their friends and significant others and about what they do instead of what they look like.  Characters don't care if I get mad at them.  They actually have a reason for everything they do...

Po1s0n

Turning My Music to Volume: Deaf

So I find it funny that another guy actually hears me while you go on ignoring me for video games and hulu.  Fine.  Maybe the online world will actually listen.  And I think you would be interested in this.  Also, this is great to talk about as parents.  But whatever.  Love you too...

I never realized how technologically hooked we are to need "breaks" from eating to check our devices.
http://shine.yahoo.com/channel/parenting/10-things-you-dont-know-about-teens-and-social-networking-2527367/

I'm sorry, but my kids aren't even getting cell phones until they need them and aren't getting laptops until they either are required by their school or when the graduate from high school.  A computer won't be going into their room, because sleep is more important.  School is more important.  And if my 16 year old has a cell phone, they won't be using it at the table.  Ever.  No "breaks" during the meal, and the meal isn't going to be shortened just because their friend keeps texting them.

On another note, I would hate to remove a "friend" from facebook but she disappeared for forever and is now posting the occasional item on facebook but ignoring all of her friends who were worried about her the whole time.  The good news?  She's not dead after all.  Yay.  But thanks for being such a freaking jerk to everyone.

Poison.

SAHM

I hate being a stay at home mother.  He's teething so is cranky like he needs a nap, but of course, he won't go to sleep.  My husband gets to be out until late, so by the time he gets home, there's only one more feeding before bedtime.  I'm so tired of these headaches that I have getting worse because of my son's whining.  I'm not a bad parent; just very tired.

Poison.