I was thinking about this a lot last night (you know, instead of sleeping).
What if I had stuck by my original word? I said, when I moved to a different state, "No more guys." What did I do? Found 3 I instantly had a crush on. One of the crushes dwindled rather quickly as my heart moved on to the other two possibles. Because of one crush, I met another one. I allowed myself to cheat on my secret boyfriend back home for the nth time with that last crush. The others dwindled over time (though I admit it took a very long while), and I became a wife and mother. I would not ask for a different man.
But if I had stuck by that "no more guys" rule, certain things would not have happened. Would I have spent all that extra time at his house getting to know him? Probably not. Maybe I would have taken my time, done things right, dated and eventually married one of my original crushes. I would still be in school, I may still have my ex as a friend, and I probably wouldn't think much about the man that I did marry in real life.
And maybe I would have found someone totally new that I had never met in real life because of the poor choices I made.
All in all, I'm not sure I would have been as happy as I am today. I'm glad I made bad choices. Yeah, I learned from them. But I also learned that they truly do depict the outcomes of our lives, and sometimes mistakes can be the best choices you've ever made.
Poison.
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