Staying Put *pout*

I want to throw a huge tantrum, but either I'm tantrumed out or can actually think things through.  I wanna move so badly to another town, but my husband is **logically** dragging his feet about it.  School is giving him issues, work can't really work with him and keep him on full time.. and the other part that I see is that we have a roommate soon who also works here.  So.. having more time gives him more time to get a transfer going.

I hate this.  I don't want to live here.  I want to go live where my friends live.  I want that great Christian environment.  I don't have that here.  This is a crucial time for my faith, too...

Poison.

Why I Prefer Characters

My characters will put a new bag in when they take out the trash.  They change the toilet paper roll.  They are fiscally responsible.  They use logic!  They do what I ask without grumbling about it.  They care about their friends and significant others and about what they do instead of what they look like.  Characters don't care if I get mad at them.  They actually have a reason for everything they do...

Po1s0n

Turning My Music to Volume: Deaf

So I find it funny that another guy actually hears me while you go on ignoring me for video games and hulu.  Fine.  Maybe the online world will actually listen.  And I think you would be interested in this.  Also, this is great to talk about as parents.  But whatever.  Love you too...

I never realized how technologically hooked we are to need "breaks" from eating to check our devices.
http://shine.yahoo.com/channel/parenting/10-things-you-dont-know-about-teens-and-social-networking-2527367/

I'm sorry, but my kids aren't even getting cell phones until they need them and aren't getting laptops until they either are required by their school or when the graduate from high school.  A computer won't be going into their room, because sleep is more important.  School is more important.  And if my 16 year old has a cell phone, they won't be using it at the table.  Ever.  No "breaks" during the meal, and the meal isn't going to be shortened just because their friend keeps texting them.

On another note, I would hate to remove a "friend" from facebook but she disappeared for forever and is now posting the occasional item on facebook but ignoring all of her friends who were worried about her the whole time.  The good news?  She's not dead after all.  Yay.  But thanks for being such a freaking jerk to everyone.

Poison.

SAHM

I hate being a stay at home mother.  He's teething so is cranky like he needs a nap, but of course, he won't go to sleep.  My husband gets to be out until late, so by the time he gets home, there's only one more feeding before bedtime.  I'm so tired of these headaches that I have getting worse because of my son's whining.  I'm not a bad parent; just very tired.

Poison.

Again... Sorry!

You want a hug and when I say I still have homework, you get frustrated and mumble something about it only taking "one second"

Well... so does pausing a game to take care of our son.

Poison.

Sorry

I'm sorry that taking care of our son is such a burden for you.  I'm sorry that the "pause" button was created for a reason.  I'm sorry that in my head, my school is more important than your video games.

Poison.

Well...

This time it's not video games; it's random trailers and other videos and facebook.  Oh, and he's on two computers at once.

Poison.

Dear Subconscious...

Hello, brain.  It's me again.  Umm... listen... I know he's here all the time and everything, but these dreams are something I really don't need right now, all things considered.  Especially when I can't get them out of my head.  Then, they come up at random times, and... well... he's still at my place.  Luckily, my Aunt Flo is here to help cool things down, but I'd rather not have to have her help.

Lord, PLEASE get rid of these thoughts and dreams for me.  Thanks.

Pois0n[ed]

Why Do I Wait?

I'm at home bored and for some reason think that having my husband home will ease the boredom somehow.  It doesn't.  Maybe I'm anxious for his arrival for some help with the kid.  No, that's probably not it either, since simply asking for him to make a bottle gets him a little cranky.  And if the kiddo is crying, it's ME that has to go figure out why.  Excuses are either:  "I didn't hear him" or a shouting "You're okay" without even checking on him.  Whatever.  I mean, even as I write this, the baby is crying.  Of course, the dishwasher is running, the husband is playing video games and watching YouTube.  What am I doing?  Blogging.  Listening to the baby cry.

At least he started supper while I was out running.

Poison.

How Much More?

I deal with the same thing over and over again, and it wears me down.  I can go from happy to emotionally exhausted in just moments.  He takes things out of proportion and breaks down and panics over the same things all the time.  Does he not understand that we have always made it through and will continue to do so?  I need people to vent to other than him but don't have a whole lot of options.  The option I do have is friends with him and has flirted with me on more than one occasion.  Though I trust him (because of how good of friends they are), my SO has indicated that he worries sometimes that there may be something going on.  No... But it would be good to be able to talk to him without HIM around.  ....It would be good to vent to someone who actually sees this on a daily basis and can calm ME down... Ya know... after all of the calming HIM down.

Poison.