Yesterday's dare was #5.
ASK YOUR SPOUSE FOR THREE THINGS THAT MAKE HIM UNCOMFORTABLE OR IRRITATED WITH YOU. DO NOT GET DEFENSIVE OR TRY TO JUSTIFY YOUR ACTIONS.
His responses weren't what I expected at all. In fact, he actually couldn't think of anything right away and had to think about it.
1) He doesn't like the walls I put up around myself.
2) He doesn't like that I seem unhappy with where life turned up.
3) He doesn't like it when I get irritated at him for not going to bed. "But that's just a small thing."
The first two, I completely understood and didn't fight him on them. No problem. The third one, I slipped up and tried to justify it, but shut up before I got too much into it. I understand where he's coming from.
I can't sleep without him, so #3 is going to be very difficult to control.
#1 is impossible by myself. That one is going to take a LOT of prayer.
#2 is a matter of being patient and being completely content with where I am in life. After all, this IS where God put us.
Today's dare is not reacting in irritation to tough circumstances in our marriage, but rather acting in love. I'm supposed to make a list of areas where I "need to add margin" in my schedule and a list of wrong motivations I need to release from my life.
Wrong motivations, I understand, but I have no idea how to add margin in my schedule for things like more sleep and all that. I'm a mother. I get naps when kiddo does. I also have insomnia, so... it's not because of lack of time for sleep that I'm so tired :(
Now, I DO need to eat more. I totally get that.
Poison.
PS: Mood isn't terrible today. Haven't dealt with hubby more than 1.5 hours today so far. lol
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